Here's To GROWING UP

Being nineteen years old is a weird experience that I have not enjoyed. Until recently, I'd been striving to be as "teenage" as possible, living in denial of the fact that my 20th birthday will be here before I know it. Then I saw this X-factor audition and it was these girls who were 20-23 years old talking about how they were just "a group of teenagers singing about life" and I was embarrassed for them and for me and for 20-somethings in general because your 20's should not be a contest of who can stay the most high-school for the longest. Then I read an article about how our culture has given young people endless opportunities to "postpone" growing up and just recently I have realized how true that is. Avril Lavigne's new hit "Here's to Never Growing Up" is embarassing because it's everybody's jam (don't deny it) and it's talking about being almost thirty years old, running down the street yelling kiss my ass, like yeah, whatever, we're still living like that. 

Like...can we not? 

Growing up is one of those things that just happens and as sad and nostalgic as it makes me feel, we're all just going to have to deal with it. I don't want to be 25 or 30 years old, calling myself a teenager and desperately telling people that "yeah, whatever, I'm still living like that" because THAT'S PATHETIC and the fact that I see real life people living that life makes me very sympathetic toward humankind in general. 

So, I am setting off on a self-reflective journey that involves turning my growing up experience into a fun, beautiful, and worthwhile adventure. It's been eventful so far, but rewarding. Going through a liberating break-up, learning how to budget my money, actually doing my homework, appreciating my job, evaluating my emotional, physical, and spiritual health have been several of the things that have launched me into this season of not-putting-off-growing-up. I'm excited and scared and ready to make the most of my future instead of procrastinating on experiencing it. 

All that to say, if you ever see me around town yelling "here's to never growing up" just tell me to stop and I'll do the same for you. 


Love, 
Christie